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Jun 4

When Plans Run Amok – – –

by suddenlysinglewomen

I’m a planner, I admit it.  I like to plan and have everything carefully arranged so life can be a bit more simple, a tad easier day to day.  When plans run amok – GRRRRR!!!  We’re alone, so planning helps us prepare.  When life throws you curve balls – like a divorce – it’s good to have plans to fall back on.  Planning keeps you sane.  So today – – – –

I have a wonderful nephew who is supposed to be staying with me this summer, help out when I’m traveling, keeping the house safe and troubles at bay.  Till today when we found out his summer internship may fall through – darn, now who’s going to gather my mail for me while I’m on vacay??  And deal with locking gates and . . . nope, can’t worry about that now because I need to get the dogs to the vet for 7:30 a.m. drop off then on to deal with my vehicle.

Took the truck in for service, getting ready for a road trip, BAM – one tire has a nail, can’t be repaired, put on the spare and need to buy new tire.  NOPE!  Talk to #2 son who says it’s time for new tires anyway so let’s get four new tires.  OK – fine.  Make appointment online, order four new tires from Discount Tire, show up this morning at my 8:30 appointment time, BAM!

They don’t HAVE those tires – I’m thinking, then why do I have a piece of paper that says you do???  So of course, they have me, I’m there, so four different tires that they just happen to have in stock that are – of course – you guessed it, more $$$.  Fine, 45 minutes??  No problem, I’ve brought a book!!  More than an hour later, BAM!!

Sorry, they say.  Don’t know what happened, they say.  Two of the lug nuts won’t tighten, they’re stripped but we’ll send you over to another shop to get them replaced and pay for it.  No problem, I’ve now eaten into my day of getting things done but FINE – off I go.  And oh by the way, did I mention that I now have to get the new tires aligned, something I’d just paid for at the service checkup at the dealer??  BAM!!

Show up at the repair tire dealer, Discount Tire has called ahead and this man is shaking his head saying that they get a lot of Discount Tire customers with damage – GRRRRR!!!  He goes online and can’t fine anyone who has the parts that I need but yes he can certainly preform the alignment for me – an hour.  More perseverance, and he finds two lug nuts that fit my car and can be delivered – this morning.  But now maybe more than an hour?  BAM!!

Luckily I like to walk, so off I go to head home and be productive.  It’s exercise, right??  And it’s only 10:00 a.m. and my plans just aren’t working for me today.  And as I’m strolling home in 95 degree heat, I happen to walk behind a group of boutique shops that bring back a memory of the ex, BAM!!

Yep, that used to be a lingerie shop and one day, near Valentine’s Day that particular year, he had received a “thank you” postcard in the mail from that shop for becoming a new “customer”.  HA!!  Only problem was, the purchases were not for me, they were for adulterous liaison #2.  Yup, that whole marriage plan just didn’t quite work out the way I had intended it to either.  Instead of a plan running amok, it was a husband running amok.

So maybe the plan for today should just be to NOT make a plan – SIGH!!

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May 28

Memorial Day – – –

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Today is Memorial Day.  All across this country flags are flying and people are honoring those who gave their lives for the “red, white & blue”.

My father was a military man, served in WWII and Korea.  It was something he never talked about, not many of them do.  They did their “duty”, then those who returned went on with their lives and somehow managed to get past, or at least get through the PTSD (Post Traumatic Stress Disorder).  They didn’t ask for help, they didn’t ask for drugs or counseling or hospitalization or sympathy.

It wasn’t until the summer of 2007 that I even found out my father had been a part of D-Day and had landed at Utah Beach.  I had known about the Aleutian Islands and Northern Africa, but never Normandy.  This was a man who never questioned his duty, he just did it.  Looking at the shadow box of medals that hang in my Mother’s house, he must have done it well.  I lost my Dad in 1998 and I miss him every day.

I miss his integrity, I miss his quirky sense of humor, I miss his quiet intelligence and his sense of right and wrong.  He led by example, he didn’t need to brag about his accomplishments.  He was a part of Brokaw’s “The Greatest Generation”.  There is a huge difference between the vets of the 40’s and the vets of today.  In the 40’s they came home as heroes and they came home as winners.

So as we honor our fallen heroes today, let us not forget that we still have military men and women giving their lives today for our country, and for our freedom.   Let’s also remember to say thank you and honor those who do make it home and we’ll all be better for doing it.

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May 17

Taking A Break From Being Everything to Everybody – –

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A dear friend, one of my first friends to “follow” my blog, sent me this the other day.  (Thanks CS!)  While it doesn’t speak to divorce “specifically”, I think it definitely covers ground that we all face after we divorce.  When you want to try to be everything to everybody, you wear out.  As a wife and a mother and a friend, I wanted to be there for everyone.  It was exhausting.  Now that I don’t necessarily have the time nor financial resources, it doesn’t mean that I don’t still want to give, give, give or feel guilty when I can’t.  This article below gives us permission to take a break.  Maybe it’s time to give yourself some of that compassion you used to give to everyone else.  Take care of you!
“You are a good person. It’s a long race. You are suffering from compassion fatigue.
Of course you care about people, but has there been a time in history when people have been put under more pressure to be charitable? You go to the store to pick up a quart of milk and pass a homeless man with a sign asking for your help, then you have to pass by someone selling brownies for some charity outside the grocery store, and when you pay for your milk you are asked if you want to make a donation to MS. It’s a veritable attack of the charities.

Not giving today does not mean you want the homeless man to starve, the Girl Scouts to miss their jamboree, or people to suffer from MS. It just means it is someone else’s turn to give today.

You have compassion fatigue because you have been compassionate. Compassion is not measured by how much you gave, or whether you were able to, or whether you fixed their problem, but that you wanted to. That compassion, even devoid of action, is precious and must be preserved. It makes us great.

So recover. Treat yourself to a margarita, a spa day, a drive by the ocean, a ride in the mountains, a day with family, or maybe some time in your church. Recharge because you are an important part of this world, and because you deserve it.

What we must not do, however, is defend ourselves with fiction that the problems are not real, that people are not suffering, or that they somehow deserve it. Suffering happens, it is not good, and we should not feel OK seeing it.

Being human means we have compassion; but being human also means we have limits. So when you feel the fatigue, let yourself off the hook. I am here to tell you it is OK, and there is no need to rationalize not giving. Tell yourself not today, I am taking the day (or week) off. It’s margarita Saturday, etc.

And when you are recharged, watch out world, your love for your fellow man can make a difference that would shame the rest of us. You are, after all, kind of amazing.” —

Eric Pederson

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May 14

Happy Mother’s Day

by suddenlysinglewomen

Not all divorced women are Mothers.  To those who are, whether it was by giving birth, adoption, step children or mothering those “four-legged” children, Mother’s Day is a day meant for you.  It celebrates all the sacrifices you’ve made, all the love you’ve given.  It’s one of my most favorite of days because it celebrates one of the things in my life that I think I did “the best”!

I have two sons, they are the highlights of my life.  My marriage may have not turned out the way that I hoped and dreamed it would, but those two boys did and then some.  Yup – I did that right.

So as I was walking the dogs on one of the last pleasant weather days before the HOT summer sets in, I was enjoying my “Motherhood” experience.  Thinking about how cute they were as babies, how active they were as toddlers, how sometimes scattered they were in school, how focused they were in college, and how successful they have become as young adults.  Then it dawned on me . . . without the “spouse”, these boys would not have happened.

So for Mother’s Day 2012, I’ll be grateful for the marriage and the husband, because even though he broke my heart, he also gave me the greatest gift possible – my sons. Wishing you all a Happy Mother’s Day!

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May 11

A Playlist!!

by suddenlysinglewomen

I’m a big music lover.  I have an old Nano and I take it with me everywhere so I can listen to my favorite tunes!!  I listen to it when I’m putting on my makeup, when I’m on the elliptical, when I’m vacuuming, when I’m outside walking, on an airplane, when I’m writing, walking on the beach.  It makes me smile, singing along with my fav tunes lifts my spirits.

I have different playlists for different things I do but one thing that gets the most “play time” is my play list about being stronger, being happier, and getting through each day knowing I’m going to make it.  So I would like to share some of these songs with you and maybe you can download them and use them as a “pick me up” too.  Listen to the lyrics.  I hope they speak to you like they speak to me!!  Enjoy!

Firework  by  Katy Perry

A Little Bit Stronger  by  Sara Evans

Stronger  by  Kelly Clarkson

Beautiful  by  Christina Aguilera

Anytime You Need A Friend  by  Mariah Carey

What Becomes Of The Broken Hearted  by  Paul Young

Unwritten  by  Natasha Bedingfield

F**kin’ Perfect  by  Pink

Keep Your Head Up  by  Andy Grammer

King Of Anything  by  Sara Bareilles

Keep on singing those blues away!!!

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May 1

You’re NOT Alone – –

by suddenlysinglewomen

While researching some thoughts about my blog, it’s become clear how many of us there are out there.  I also have great friends who share things with me when they think it would be useful for the upcoming book or this site.  I will always forward on to you what I think could help you in this survival quest.

Last time I shared another’s blog, I found the way to connect the two.  This time, I don’t seem to be able to make it work.  So here’s what I can try to do to help you find it.  It’s on the blog site of the Huffington Post.  This is what my gal pal sent me:

Lisa Arends: Rewrapping Divorce as a Gift

As my eldest son reminds me on many occasions, Google is your friend.  So if you can google it, I think you would enjoy the read.  As always, thanks for reading mine!!

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Apr 30

Shame Game – –

by suddenlysinglewomen

Shame?  I never really thought too much about it until recently.  For some reason I always attributed the “shame” of my divorce to my ex.  After all he was the one who had the affairs, he was the one who wanted the divorce and filed the paper work.  He was the one who moved out, ending thirty plus years of a relationship.  He was the one with the shame. I didn’t think I carried any.

Several years ago I attended a wedding where both the parents of the bride and the groom had been married forty plus years.  It was mentioned during the wedding ceremony and after the feeling of joy and amazement washed over me, I felt strange.  There was an emptiness in my heart I had then attributed to being alone, divorced, unhappy.  Now I realize that what I was feeling was shame.  I carried shame that when my children got married no one would be able to say that about me.

I held shame that I had somehow let down my sons in showing them what a good marriage could and should be.  I held shame that my friends were all happily married, looking forward to retiring someday and just being with “each other” and I couldn’t keep my husband from straying.  I held shame that I was not attractive enough, smart enough, thin enough, witty enough to keep my man.  I felt shame that I couldn’t seem to fall in love with the game of golf that was so important to him and his friends and their wives.

There was shame in being the first person in my family to fall victim to divorce.  Everyone else had held it together throughout the good times and the bad, why couldn’t I?  Carrying around shame is like a noose around your neck.  Now that I’ve identified it, I’m going to get rid of it.  We all make mistakes and no marriage is perfect and even if there were things you wish you could have done differently that’s all in the past.  It’s not easy, we’re not born with guilt but we sure pick it up quickly there after.

So today I’m going to start dumping the shame, I did the best that I could with the circumstances that life dealt me.  I will start to become proud of who I am, the things I stand for and the places I have yet to go.  Don’t play the “Shame Game” – keep walking forward in your new life and enjoy the journey of new opportunities.

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Apr 20

It takes a Village –

by suddenlysinglewomen

You know, I have to admit that when I heard that years ago from Hillary Clinton in reference to raising her daughter I was skeptical.  I probably didn’t really understand it the way she meant it.  I felt like I had raised my children, no baby nurses, no nannies, pretty much just me until I figured out the glory of a “Mother’s Day Out” when the first son hit three!!  Even then that was for about four hours and I spent it running errands and getting household things done, certainly nothing personal or just for myself.  I didn’t realize I needed a village.

Fast forward to my life now and I think I’m finally coming around.  You cannot live in a cocoon, and coming out of a divorce puts you in a place of needing to reach out and find yourself a village!  I heard a great line in my Divorce Recovery Series that I’ve been attending and I wanted to share it with you.  It’s not my line, I didn’t originate it but I am going to share it.   Healing Happens in Community

We’ve all experienced the loneliness that comes after leaving a marriage, a partnership, a relationship where you are a couple.  You are now alone.  You are on your own.  There is only one person squeezing that tube of toothpaste now.  You are now making your way in the world without a mate to help you through it and it stinks.  Forget thoughts of dating for a while.  I gave myself a full year before I even considered whether I wanted to let another man into my life.  However life does not happen in a vacuum.  You need people.  You cannot and should not do this alone.

You need a community, you need a village.  It’s OK being a single, but do not live singly.  If you still have children at home then you have a family community but what I’m talking about here is other adult friendships.  We are social beings and we need connections to others.  You can find these in the work place.  You can find these in social clubs, volunteer opportunities, your local church or synagogue.  You have to look but your new community is out there.  Reach out and let people know that you are available to have lunch, dinner, happy hour, go to a movie, go to the dog park.  You need to connect to others.  Join a singles group (don’t expect too much, lol!) but open up your heart to let others into your world. Find a group to be a part of because you are a valuable person and still have so much to give, and life to live.

If you have a community to share, let us hear from you.  Thank you for being part of my community!

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Apr 14

Hitting the Wall –

by suddenlysinglewomen

Hitting the wall.  When I hear that phrase I think of Marathon runners.  I’ve never run one, don’t intend to.  My take on running is that only creatures with four legs were put on this earth to run thank you very much!  But I know people who have run Marathons and my ex ran a Marathon once.  As a matter of fact, that was back when one of those first indicators of infidelity popped up that completely went over my head and I missed it.  You know what they say about hind sight being 20 – 20.  But that’s for another story.  Marathon runners are said to “hit the wall” around my 22 or so of the 26+ miles they run.  Divorce recovery is a lot like that.  The end is in sight yet so far away . . . . .

When you’re recovering from a divorce, it’s one of the biggest life changes you will ever go through.  Nothing as you knew it or lived it will ever be the same again.  We are creatures of habit, we love things that are familiar.  Familiar gives up comfort.  Trying to break away from all that familiarity is a very hard task.  I like to think of it as leaving your “comfort zone”.  There’s nothing wrong with a comfort zone.  Life after divorce however is going to force you out of your comfort zone.

Whatever patterns of behavior and patterns of life you had before just got blown up.  And do you know what happens when you refuse to break those old patterns in your life??  You will hit a wall.  You refuse to make changes and continue to try to live life as you had before is just like butting your head against the wall over and over and over again.  Guess what??  That wall isn’t going to move and it’s not going to crumble upon impact.  It’s just going to give you a really big headache.

Hard?? Yes!!  Impossible??  No!!  I know, I’ve hit it multiple times.  I’m stubborn, I keep trying to live my life as I did before and it’s not working.  When that wall won’t move, it’s time to make changes.  Assess yourself and your life and what you can do to scale that wall.  Is it moving to a different town?  Maybe.  Is it changing your group of friends and surrounding yourself with those people who live like you live and believe in the same moral and ethical values as you?  Absolutely.  Is it putting up boundaries and learning to respect yourself as a valuable and important human being?  Yes, please!   Create a new life for yourself that gives you new options and keeps you away from repeatedly running into that wall.

Find a ladder, it’s going to be great on the other side!!  Believing that gets me through each and every day!

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Apr 12

Finding yourself again –

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http://www.huffingtonpost.com/vicki-larson/why-do-women-lose-themsel_b_1402680.html?icid=maing-grid10%7Chtmlws-main-bb%7Cdl8%7Csec1_lnk3%26pLid%3D150419

A dear friend sent me this link to an article concerning “losing ourselves” in our relationships with men.  It does seem to happen, has for generations.  Sometimes on the “other side” of marriage we manage to recoup that which we had given “away” or given “up” when we married.  It’s true, we can lose ourselves totally and forget the things that we believed in, that we were passionate about, that meant the world to us.

I share the post here with you to provoke thoughts of what you lost, and what you now have the freedom to get back.  It’s a struggle but maybe, just maybe it’s also an opportunity.  I’m reminded of a poster I once had hung up in my classroom. I know you’ve heard it!  “When life gives you lemons, make lemonade.”  I’ll be making some lemonade today!!

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